A Little Nostalgia

I am home by myself. I am sitting, and I am loving it. I worked some of the day then spent the rest of the day running around making sure Kyle gets to Vegas with everything he needs, and with clean and ironed clothes. But I promise, this is not the blog for his big trip - this trip needs a blog of its own.

So I'm sitting here being completely nostalgic. It started this afternoon when I shocked Kyle with the news that I wouldn't be at his softball games tonight. He could not believe it, and honestly I couldn't either. What did I just say to him? I don't know that I've ever just said, "Nah, I'm not going to make this one." And then I reminded him that I have been at every one of his baseball AND softball games for the last five years. Ok, not everyone, but seriously like 99% of them. And I've never just not gone, if I haven't gone there has been a reason. Tonight there is no reason. I just want to sit, at home.

So when I told him that I had been at all of them for the last 5 years - it struck me kind of funny. 1) That's a lot of games and 2) 5 years? Really?  But alas, it will be in fact 5 years in October. Then I remembered how old we were. I was 18! That's shocking enough, but then I remembered that he was 19!? Freaked. Me. Out. And not just about us, where have the last 5 years gone? What have I done with my life?

So here's what I've done (semi in order): I met a boy, I carved pumpkins, I saw a scary movie, I skipped a lot of classes, I began dating a boy, I met the boys family, I met the boys friends, I became a girlfriend, I went to my first college dance, I decided I should stop skipping classes because this boy was really smart, I spent the holidays with a boy, I went to my first Blues Hockey game, I learned my dog was missing, I went to my first college baseball game, I started planning my wedding, I emailed my mom and told her I was going to marry this boy, I went to my second ever Cardinals game, I watched the World Cup, I went on a family trip with a boy, I spent my second New Years with a boy, I got to go back to NY for my Grandmas 80th birthday, I watched my sister get engaged, I became a Maid of Honor, I watched a lot more college baseball games, I got Cat Scratch Fever, I helped plan a wedding, I watched my sister get married, I bought my mom a dog, I got ready for my third holiday season with a boy, I watched a lot more Blues games, I watched a lot more college baseball games, I got ready to watch a boy graduate from college, I watched a boy graduate with Honors, I started my last year of college without a boy, I learned I was going to be an AUNT, I survived the worst teacher known to man, I had surgery on my hand, I welcomed my parents second dog to the family, I got ready for graduation, I graduated, I celebrated a 4th Christmas with a boy, I moved in with a boy and his family, I sat on a park bench and became a fiance, I started planning a wedding, I found out Zoey was going to be my niece, I became a nanny, I got my own place to live, I watched my sister have a baby (well, not all of it), I held little Zo for the first time, I spent a lot of time in Columbia, my mom bought me a big white dress, I picked out some flowers and purple dresses to match, I passed an insurance licensing test, I got ready for the 5th holiday season with a boy, I got a tattoo, I watched a boy get baptized, I got ready to become Mrs. Proebsting, I planned a trip to St. Lucia, I got a new place to live, I invited everyone to come watch us get married, I became a wife in front of all those people, I went to St. Lucia, I watched another World Cup, I learned I was going to be an aunt again, I heard Zoey say, "Hello," I started a new job, I watched Zoey take some steps, I watched a lot of football, I watched Kyle fix a chair, and I got out my sewing machine.

That's a pretty full and happy 5 years.

First Dance

A lot of Italians for Grandmas Birthday!

Engaged at Niagra Falls!

Trip with Kyles family

The pups

I could have cared less to graduate

It's a Zoey!!

Finally.

Big sister to be - Can't wait to meet the new little one!!!